Wow I have not been on here in forever!

shit basically sucks now....

I cant run

I have no one!

I cant sleep

I havnt packed\

Basically all out depressed I don't even want to hang out with the people I do have around plus im the only one with out someone some im like the odd man out... which sucks in any situation..

Jarrod and Olivia are still going out.. and olivia had a party that really sucked a bunch of people came to my house and got completly trashed so that was a good day but now olivia hates me because we ditched her party which blew and everyone else ditched too so they dont talk to me at all anymore..

Dixon... we dont talk any more he stopped by olivias on that party night.. so we went to the movies and dinner the next night and havnt heard from him since.. since im leaving ive been tring to get in touch with him.. me being pathetic wanted to hang out with him.. but he OBVIOUSLY wants nothing to do with me.. so i got the picture now dont even get to see him before i leave.... oh well....

Mark... thats a crazy situation.. this one fucks with my mind too much... he realizes he misses me and we get into a fight about this.. for some reason he like tells me everything that is wrong with me and why we didnt work out than he tells me this is cause he loves me and soo much shit... and we have a great like 2 weeks or whatever than outta no where i dont fuckin here from him like.. i no were not together anymore but when you tell me you love me you stick around or at least talk to me!!

So Im moving out of New Egypt on Friday. 

im looking forawrd to it however im not really for field hockey preseaon AT ALL .  Turns out after prom i really stopped running and became really lazy soo now im Fucked and cant run for shit.. i ran the other day it was rough than i ran the xcountry yesterday than today i was like ok lets do a timed mile see how bad i do it was horriable...9 minutes i havnt ran a mile that slow since i a freshmen

I worked out New York and Company last night was my last day i liked it... i hated fitting room but the job wasnt bad...